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I should be at a show right now. Last weekend, I went to two show both Saturday and Sunday.
I want a cigarette but I'm trying to quit (again). During my sophomore year of high school, I smoked all year. I had smoked cigarettes before; I enjoyed them greatly. After a while though, I kept craving them. This same year, I was over-medicated, irritable, confused, etc. I ended up getting hooked but I also ended up quitting. I never really quit though. I have at least 3 every week. Last weekend, I told myself, "I'm only going to smoke cigarettes after I go to a show". The less cigarettes I have, the more I will enjoy them.
It's similar to this diet I go on frequently, the Dukan Diet. I don't go on the actual diet. I just try to eat an equal ratio of protein to carbs. When I'm on the diet for a while, my mood is very good. I am very energetic, analytic, diligent, and happy. It's a hard diet to stay on though. The diet is a great way to lose weight. Unfortuantely, I'm not losing weight. My normal weight is 191. The reason I weigh 186 is because I eat less then I should be. So I never really lose weight, I just stay at the same weight, which is less than I should way. I usually go off the diet in 2-3 days. Things happen. It's hard to stay away from carbs. I was doing very well on the diet a month ago. Then there was a power outage, and I couldn't cook my own food. While I'm on the diet though, food tastes better. It's fresh and invigorating.
One of my motivations to stop smoking for good is to improve my breathing. If I can breathe better, I can excersize more. I used to go to the gym a lot and work on the stair-climber for an hour at a time. I stopped going since the stair-climber isn't the BEST cardio workout. Unfortunately, I don't do the BEST cardio workout in place of the stair-climber. That is a very bad thing. I stopped doing cardio for 2 months because I'm a perfectionist who doesn't do things due to the knowledge that he can do better. Unfortunately. I stop at this realization and don't actually do better.