Nobody wants to go down

I'm feeling like I'm about to go down again. This summer hasn't been all that perfect. My mom is still very sick and doesn't seem to be getting better. My car broke down in April which makes me scared to drive. I'm starting to get tired of my job. Waiting on tables gets old after awhile. I hate the side effects of my medication. I'm just starting to realize how alone I've been all of high school. In middle school, I always wanted to have a group of friends. That never happened. I maintained two amazing relationships and a couple other ones that were very good but I have trouble realizing how good they are. I'm not sure if it's strange that I went to two shows all by myself.